What an adventure yesterday was. After pulling an all-nighter to accomplish some school, we then began the trek to San Antonio. After a break at Buc-ee’s, we entertained ourselves in stop-and-go traffic with a dance party and by throwing candy back-and-forth between the cars. Shortly after arriving at The River Walk, I had the wonderful experience of ripping my pants. Following a lovely lunch over looking The River Walk, we journeyed to The Alamo (wrapped in our newly purchased Mexican blankets). After visiting some of Jeremy’s old stomping ground, we prayed over him before leaving him at his home. Taking over for Madison, I then drove us (following Ricky) back to Buc-ee’s. Not realizing the parking break was on, we pulled over to figure out what was wrong… Pulling over slightly too far, we were then stuck in the mud, which Michael kindly got us out of. The final part of our journey was to have dinner with Toria and Irene. After visiting with our great girls we hit the road, only to be pulled over a minute later for not having our lights on (Thanks for the snap, Ricky). We then headed home for a slumber which I hadn’t received in 43hrs. What a day…
Well looking over my Tumblr post from the last few months truly describes my life as of late. A bit of random friends, some Jesus, and the rest about a boy.
What was my focus really on?
Why do we care so much what one person thinks when God is in control of him anyway.
The regret of the last few months is getting to me. While I am beyond grateful for the friends, ministry and church I have been placed in, I know that when I look back I’ll see the negative and not the positive.
I can only pray that God guide me to his decision and plan for my life and that I always FOCUS on Him and Him alone.
Not often do I question why God has placed me where I am, who He has placed in my life, or what He has placed ahead of me. For the last +6months I’ve begged Him to show me why He has placed feelings in my heart for a certain man He brought into my life. All I wanted was an answer. No answer magically appeared. After constantly praying for guidance and reading very encouraging spiritual books, but still receiving no answer, I gave up. I placed God on a back burner and decided to live life and feel how I wanted to, not how God has chosen for me to. I’ve gotten to a point now, where I reached the conclusion that I was scared to get an answer. I am scared to face the fact that God has other plans for me! Realizing my mistake is one thing. Fixing it is a whole different situation. Steps are required. Repentance is a big one. Another is doing everything you can to not stray away again. Accountability is a must. Most importantly, asking Him for His guidance in every situation. He knows everything.
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11 ESV)
One day he’ll be famous. I’ll say I was his biggest fan, before he had any.
Stephen Engstrom Music
There are somedays when I realize what I’ve missed out on.
There are somedays when I think of what could’ve been.
There are somedays when I wonder why.
There are somedays when the pain gets overwhelming and the tears begin to pour.
There are somedays when I remember all the pain, struggle, and emotion.
But everyday I know that God has been in control.
Rejoice always, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus. (1 Thessalonians 5:16, 18)